Broken hearts

Boy oh boy have I been busy. My husband has actually threatened me if I spend anymore time at the school he will kill me. Maybe a bit extreme but I can see his point. I spent time there for our carnival in middle Nov. Now we have been there for 2 weeks straight working on the stepping stones for the kids. They are putting their hands in concrete w/stones they are WAY cute! But that is very time consuming for 570 kids. So it has taken 2 1/2 days of running at the school not to mention that I volunteer 2 days a week in the kids classes. Granted on Tues it is only for 1 1/2 hrs and Fri only 1 hr but tomorrow will mark day 4 of being at the school this week.

Now for the part where I broke my son's heart. When Corrin was in K-1st she got to go to every single singing thing there was. Connor NEVER got to go in Kindergarten and the music teacher said he doesn't sing. WHAT?? My boy he is my biggest musical kid I have. Soooooooo I talked to her and asked if he was doing better this year and she said yes and if he does really good she will take him singing last week. So he sang at the Chamber. He and I were both so proud. So yesterday I happened just by chance to dress him super cute and kinda Christmasy for school and dropped him off. Went to pick him up after school and he drops the bomb.
He say "You didn't come to see me sing today"
Me - "what you were singing today?"
Connor - "Yes at the gardens(nursing home)"
Me - "I never saw a note"
Connor - "It was in my lunch box"
Me - "I didn't see it and why was it in your lunch box?"
Connor - "Coz she gave it to me before lunch"
Me - "I am so sorry I wouldn't have missed it for the world and you know I love you always
even when I am not with you don't you?"
Connor - "Yes but I wanted you there" NOw he is crying and my heart is breaking

We get home and he comes up to me and says "I felt like you didn't love me when you weren't there" ARe you kidding me? Could a bigger guilt trip be laid on me? I feel like such a heel. He is going to be singing next week for the Winter program heaven forbid they call it the Christmas program that is recognizing Christ. Shocking! So we decided that I am going to take him shopping and to ice cream since it is so warm outside.

Today I take my youngest 2 to JoAnn and repeatly told Ian to put this little thing back. Low and behold he has it when we get home. So tomorrow I get to take my boy back to JoAnn and have him tell them he took it and make him pay for it. And then he doesn't even get to keep it. How exactly am I going to get the boy who won't talk to any adults to talk to one when he is in trouble? It will be interesting but he clearly knew he was not allowed to have it and brought it home anyway. Parenting is not fun s/times.

On the other hand Kolette announced that she is going to marry me. I told her she has to marry a nice boy who loves Jesus. She tells Ian she is going to marry him. He says no she will have to find some other boy to marry he is going to marry his grandma. She says to Connor I am going to marry you Connor. Innocence isn't it great?