Mama Bear on the loose - Don't shoot!!!!!

It is an interesting thing that happens when you give birth to your first child. You think you are so prepared for having a new baby. You have the nursery all set up, clothes you wonder if your child will ever fit into, you have the name picked out and know if you will nurse or bottle feed even know who will change most of the diapers. But the one thing I don't think you are prepared for is the intensity of love and protectiveness you feel the instant they set that screaming precious child on your chest. The thing that catches you so unaware is that the feeling just gets stronger and stronger every day. And then you have another child and you secretly wonder while you are pregnant if you can possibly love another baby as much as you love the first one. And then once again you have that precious newborn set on your chest after you have labored to get them out and your question is instantly answered because your heart has enlarged that very moment and you have forgotten that you ever just loved one child. Then you have the 3rd and then the 4th and each time your heart grows more and more. It is such an amazing feeling and the best thing in the world. You as a Mom the most wonderful name you have ever been called are called to duty. You get to love them, watch over them, wipe them over and over, feed them, stay up w/them when they are sick, worry over them, kiss and hug them as much as you want. The list goes on and on. But the one thing that you are so unaware is ever going to happen is your Mama Bear instinct comes out. You have seen it in your own mother and silently been so proud that she loved you enough to go to the lengths that she did but never knew what it felt like to go thru it yourself. For some of us it happens early like when your child is struggling for life in a hospital and the staff is telling you things and you know they aren't right and you fight for your child and then they live. It proves that as mothers that we know what our children need. And then s/times it happens later when a child or adult it mean to your child. You are shocked to find that strong feeling coming out again. But what makes no sense to me is when people don't get your Mama Bear instinct. When you are doing what is your job as a Mama Bear to do and they try to deny it. What is hard is that no matter what you need to do what is best for your child and for that instinct I am thankful. I just pray that I can use my Mama Bear instinct for what God intended it for and not for harm. But when questioned I will stand tall and say I am proud Mama Bear and I love my cubs!

The perfect pants

Ok, it is a little crazy that a pair of jeans can make my day but ohhhhhhh they are so doing that for me today. I went shopping over the weekend and found 2 pairs of jeans but one of them was just perfect for me. So I bring them home and pull them out of the bag and AHHHHHH they didn't take the thing off of the leg. I don't want to ruin the pants and try to get it off myself so have to just wait. The store was in Nampa and I SO not running right back.

Anyhow my mother in law took them back and got the tag off. Yahoo!!!! These pants feel so good and it makes my day! Yep I am so a girl and a nice pair of pants does it for me. Now off to tackle a laundry room full of laundry my super pants will help sustain me thru this yucky task!!!!! Da da da DA!!!!!!!!

Medical frustration AGAIN!!!!!

I am starting to wonder what kinda country we live in. I hadn't given my kids their flu shot yet and had to wait till after they all got better before we got it. So today I called the Dr. office. They asked me what kind of insurance I had. I asked why it mattered. They said it did so I and apparantly we have "private insurance" aka we are not on Welfare or the Medical card. So I got really frustrated and told her that makes no sense and that it sounds alot like Obama care and that I don't like it at all and to call me when they have some in. I get off the phone and it makes me even madder.

So I called the clinic in town and they are out but they don't go by that policy and suggest I call the health dept. I call there and the lady there says that they are probably saving them for those that can't afford to get the shot. I told her that I was going to be not Pollitically correct but how is that fair? I said that my husband has a job and pays his taxes and why should my kids be penalized for having insurance.

So I call the my Doc's office and ask for the Office Manager or the Doctor. They give me the Doc's nurse of the day. I asked her about it and she says that they save them for the VFC aka Vaccines For Children. Also another word for welfare. GRRRRRR.... So anyhow I tell her that I don't see how this makes sense. I said I have 2 kids w/asthma since babies and another diagnosed recently how does s/ones kid who can't afford it deserve it more than my high risk kids. I said that I didn't see how this was even legal. I told her that the other doctor offices weren't doing this. She said it was Supply and Demand. I said how about if I "demand that they give me some of their supply"? I am so ticked. She called me back but left a message w/o an answer just call so in my opinion that means you are out of luck. I am so mad. Why should I have to put up w/this or anyone else who chooses to pay their own bills. This is reverse discrimination in my opinion.

Sorry but this is just so frustrating for me. Hope you all have wonderful healthy weekend I am sure hoping that we will.

Random pictures

Ian and Kolette sharing a hug
Kolette w/a 103.5 fever. Ian wanted her to feel better so he gave her the "Miss Krissy" balloon and one that he drew on for her. It made her happy. Gotta love that boys big heart.
Momentarily toothless. He refused to wiggle the tooth it has been loose for over 6 months. Crazy boy the tooth fairy doesn't motivate him at all.
Connor and his friend McKenzie shooting marshmallow guns. Apparantly the tree makes for better shooting on unsuspecting victims.

Not me Monday

It is Not Me Monday revisited again by me. I stole this idea from Tiff who stole it from s/one else forgive my not remembering the name of who.

This week I did NOT have everyone in my house sick. They did NOT find it more interesting to their Mama to shake it up a bit and not be sick all on the same day. Our school district did NOT have over 30% of the kids sick daily and continue until today and who knows how much longer. I did NOT buy my kids all their own water bottles forbidding them to drink from any fountain at the school and get them their own hand sanitizers. No I would NOT panic like that I am a totally a calm person. Corrin did NOT test positive for Influenza on Thurs after being sick for 4 days. I did NOT later that same day freak at Kolettes oxygen being at 91 along w/a fever of 104.3. No I would NOT do that. I also did NOT argue w/the doctor in town that 93 isn't a acceptable O2 level. I did NOT tell my favorite doctor that the girl answering the phone calls is a twit. I would NOT do that. I did NOT cringe when Donnie got sick too. However I am thankful that I avoided the entire sickness.

I did NOT miss church on sunday in fear of passing more germs. I also did NOT sleep in after a very long week of sleeping on the couch w/countless kids. My back did NOT get mad at me for that either.

I also did NOT offer to spray my 5 yr old w/water if he didn't get out of bed this morning. I would NOT ever do anything like that. I did NOT silently giggle when Corrin wrote a song about her brother Connor who had to have his hair spiked against his will. I did NOT dry off the paper she wrote it on to save for later. I would NOT do something like that.

I also am NOT secretly thrilled that soccer is over for Connor and happy Corrin's is almost over. I am however going to enjoy my week and hope you do too!

When you were my age. . .

It is so funny that my Kolette looks just like me but her personality and some of the things she does are so much alike. It is so funny to watch and when I tell my mom and she just laughs I know it is my payback. So when I was a kid I used to line my babies and animals up and cover them w/the part of the sheets I folded away from me. Kolette she will line hers up and cover them too. She changes her clothes and wants them to match way more than i think necessary. My mom just laughs.

So her latest thing is to ask me questions like this:

Kolette: " Mommy when you were my age how old were you?"

Me "I was the exact same age as you"

Kolette: "Wow"
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Kolette: "Mommy when you were my age did you have a preschool teacher named Miss Krissy?"

Me: "No when I was your age Miss Krissy was my age"

Kolette had a look of pure confusion to think that Miss Krissy hasn't always been preschool teacher.
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Kolette had a yellow balloon blown up and I drew a face and hair and wrote Kolette's name on it. So she named the balloon Miss Krissy. Now Ian grabbed Miss Krissy and started to swing her around. This caused crying and him laughing. So then he runs off and shuts himself in my room w/Miss Krissy. Kolette is near panic and crying b/c Miss Krissy is in danger. I had to get Miss Krissy back and talk to Ian. She took Miss Krissy to preschool to show the real Miss Krissy. Yesterday to help her feel better Ian went and found the low on air Miss Krissy and gave it to her to sleep with. But Kolette is mourning the loss of Miss Krissy full of air. I am going to have to invest in more balloons so Miss Krissy can stay alive in our house. I am so glad we have such a wonderful Preschool teacher.

Ok I give...

Oh my gosh it is crazy around this one dog town. Honestly it is totally infested w/flu. Our school of about 578 has on average 100 or more kids gone. Wondering why the school is still open. I mean that is just the Elem school and the middle and high have lots of kids gone too. Granted not all cases are bad but I do know of a few one who was life flighted. How scary. We have tested positive for influenza but which strain who knows. Honestly who cares we are sick and I am going to leave it at that. Yes I am still the insane freak I have always been but I have a bit more knowledge than I used to. So freak out level is bound to change and as long as Kolette and the rest of the crew is breathing aka not having respiratory problems or landing in the hospital I figure I should just chill. Crazy God is teaching me. Who would have thought?

Hoping everyone else is staying healthy. I am hoping no one figures out they are missing ballet, school or soccer b/c then all you know what is going to break loose.

Please Doctor can I have a prescription for a nap? I promise not to abuse it and become addicted. Wait I don't know if I can keep that promise but I know getting only 3 hrs of sleep isn't good.

Small joys

I love the small joys in my life. One of them is Connor wants his alarm to go off in the morn so he can sneak up and snuggle w/me for a few minutes before the chaos of getting ready in the morn. I love that Ian who can sneak into my bed so quietly that you have no idea he is there until you almost roll on him still comes in. Although this morn he was a little heater. I told him he had a fever and he said "no it's the sunshine making me warm" by the way the sun wasn't up yet. Even Kolette snuck in for a kiss this morn.

I love that when I helped out in Connor's class earlier this week I tapped him on the shoulder to let him know I was leaving; he got up hugged me, gave me a kiss and told me he loved me. I don't know how much longer that is going to last. I know he is getting older and he will eventually want to not do that in front of others. Corrin still does but she is a girl and she really doesn't care who sees her love on her mom. She will cross a room and do it.

I love that when I take my kids to school even with all her friends and the entire older grades outside Corrin will still stoop down and kiss and hug Ian. She has no idea she makes his entire day. She will also say hi to him everytime she sees him. They have P.E. at the same time so she keeps her eye out for him. She has even hugged him in the hallway. Love it!

I love that all the kids will give Kolette a hug as soon as they come out at the end of the day. She misses them so much it sure makes the time lost somewhat better.

I am glad that it is the small things that bring me joy. For they won't stay small for long but Lord willing they will always stay close to each other and to me. Kids Rock!!!

Soccer Update

I can't believe I haven't blogged about soccer yet this season. Just crazy busy but it's with my kids so not too many complaints. Corrin's team has changed to a different division so they travel to most of their games but have 3 right across the street from our house at the park. They have won 1, tied 1 and been creamed twice. But I still love to watch them play. Corrin has actually scored 2 times so I have enjoyed watching that. Connor's team on the other hand has never lost a game ever since they started playing in kindergarten. So it's not quite the same watching his games. Of course w/Corrin traveling to games I get to coach half of Connor's games. I don't mind but sure am glad to hand the reins back to Donnie. He is so amazing w/the kids and I am so proud of him. He just wants to see each of them do their best and get better. It is an amazing quality he has. We are blessed to have him for Coach and Dad:o) Life is good, God is better!